Friday, December 10, 2010 @ 10:55 AM
I really hate it, when you don't even bother to look back and say bye to me, as if I'm redundant..
If you don't like it, I will quit. I also don't like it to burn my precious Saturday doing these boring stuffs. But sometimes I just got no choice!!! As a leader cannot I dun feel like then don't do. It's a commitment I have stepped into at first so I have to stick by it.
I don't think it's really enjoyable to wake up early in the morning when I could have chose tosleep in .
I really hate myself for not being able to meet your expectations! Am I making ur life miserable? If it is, tell me. You always seem so unhapp and upset with me.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010 @ 2:59 AM
That look on yourface. Makes me want to just let you go and be happier
@ 2:55 AM
Yeah, I just seriously do sucks sometimes. I can't have proper pre planning and set ppl's expectations right. I think I am a really low bf, no flowers; no romantic dinners, boring brain, no surprise element..
Sometimes I think I really should not make others life miserable. ESP those ard me. Even my own mother is so fed up by me, even though think I tried so hard. Maybe I should just disappear. Fuck myself
Wednesday, November 17, 2010 @ 8:54 PM
As I went to read the blog of my M1 supervisor, I feel for her.
We do not know how many good things we have in life. We have a shelter over us, family members who are alive, in the pink of health, we have the gadgets, the lifestyle, the friends, and people around us . This is something that many people yearn for.
As much as a lot of times we feel that we are stuck in a vicious cycle that just keeps going round and round and round , which I myself also cannot comprehend why it will turn out that way, I guess the only place to seek comfort is through God .
In front of others, God is a very vague subject for me to tell them about it. Its a very personal relationship I have with Him and I understand and feel what is going on in my life as I experiences the different feelings, emotions, and happenings all around me.
solitude.
Friday, August 13, 2010 @ 2:29 AM
Awoken.
Thats the word I can think of that describes how I feel recently. At the end of the day, I realise no matter how hard I try, how far I run, I still cannot run away from Him. Like, really. It will be too much of a waste to let go what I have, and not to put it to good use, which make myself looks like any other on the street.
Reflecting, I , too, have fall into the misconception of thinking Christians must be holy. And the lesson I learnt it the hard way is that, the more "unholy you are" , all the more you should gather with wise people, not the other way round, thinking you can run away from everything, but you are just running away from yourself. yes, myself.
I guess its not too late, I will pull myself up again . why? for a very simple reason. no one gives up on me, why should I give up on myself?
Monday, July 26, 2010 @ 6:09 PM
Haha
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Wednesday, July 14, 2010 @ 12:06 AM
I really dontknow who to turn to for help.
I really dontknow.
I'm sorry Dad, I could have handled this better.
Everyone seems not to understand how I am feeling. I really feel at my wits end.
At the end of the day, what I get in return, is being shouted at. even by my most Beloved family member...
