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hello! been wanting to post but didn't have the time ah. today is friday! haha the long awaited weekend. went to celebrate khar yin birthday, getting to know her better despite being friends for like so long liaos. hope she enjoyed it.

wanted to catch a movie but no.
wanted to club but no.
wanted to slack and ton but no.

end up eating at kovan mac. ahah. hopefully the 4 meals i am taking in everyday is distributing proportionately and not all end up being sausages at my tummy area sia. if it continues this way i can say bye bye to my boxes:(

today was a day filled with messages, phone calls. having to deal with certain things which are left undone and argh. well no one to blame. always believe that there is consequences for everything you do, just try not to stumble people around you can liaos. also life is about moving on and not dwelling in the past, learn and ready to go. it is through the "downs" which builds you up and get you ready for the next bigger wave. ah. dontknow what i am talking. but yay. i am getting closer with my classmates this sem despite being in the 4th week gg to week 5!

lets plan a day out and know each better:) next weekend! now just need to work and work and work liaos.........................................................

ZHOU Kitchen



dinner buffet gourmet





ferraro and rocher




grace and smarties

nice food and time spent with family.
but the trip to there kills.

in case some of you are wondering what i'm learing in school, this is what i am doing in one of the module! i learn about circuit, about connections and all.

the pics above is example of soldering, which is to make the whole circuit board connect together so that it can be powered up. haha.anyway its quite fun for this current module because my facil very funny one arh. he really have his sense of humour one this tien chye guy:)

school is good so far.

it seems to be fine on the surface.
but actually many things are going on underneath.
just like the water which looks calm on the outside,
beneath is strong currents waiting for something to happen.


how long is this mind game going to continue?

heyhey! can anyone teach me how to put song on my blog? like people can listen to the song kind when they enter the blog. it will be best if you can help me with it! ahaha.

i'm so glad that there is no school today! i had a good rest after work and supper last night! been making myself to eat even when i am not hungry so that i can at least fulfill the 3 basic meals per day if not my mummy gonna complain me being skinny again:(

i found a good way to sleep! that is to on music and just lie on your bed and slowly auto doze off! haha so nice last night i just decided not to off my laptop, i just cover the screen, with itunes on playing the R&B songs and lie on my bed feeling so clean after the nice shower and with the damn smoothing fan blowing over me. and i slept till near 3pm today! this sleep is really so refreshing although when i woke up i needed some time to overcome the excessive nua-ness in me but well!

haha. i have alot of things in my mind again, but sometimes its just difficult to express out what i really want to say or i am afraid i am unable to express clearly what i am thinking with writing or rather, blogging. maybe its easier to talk it out but well. i believe whatever you are going through no matter good or bad, there is gonna be one thing you can take back with you. just stay positive and not stray away too much:)

waiting for ppl to ask me out. lol

i really dont know dont know dont know dont know.
is what i'm thinking = what i'm thinking?
or is what i'm thinking just what i'm thinking?

Today,
i am going to share about my friend, my good good friend.

this friend of mine, is really a unexpected friend.
somehow, he came to singapore.
somehow, he came to YYSS.
somehow, he joined BB.
and somehow, we started to talk even though he told me he thought i was a action guy last time.

i remembered vividly, there was once i knew him not later, i was sitting at the LSBC basketball court there chatting with him about some problem of mine with him over the phone, he was there to lend a listening ear, and from there we grew to know each other better too.

we try to do many things together.
we bought same bicycle together
we bought same laptop together
we took bike prac together
we bought same type of bike together
we play 1v1 battlefield against one another and laugh aloud to ourselves
we laugh at people who trip and almost fall, and he laughs the loudest!
we eat prata together until we scared of prata
we tried to spar with each other and end up unable to walk properly the next few days



we always say to one another, eh the things we buy are more and more "high class", cause more and more ex. and we would wonder whether we will grow to get house, car together too!

we can talk about anything together. scandalous stuffs, affairs of the heart, gossip, share our points and views, anything! haha. and he is by far the only person who dont lean his whole weight on one side of my bike when i pillion! you know usually pillion would stand on one side of the footrest then go up and put the leg around to the other footrest then sit, but he dont! maybe because he know how it feels for the rider to have to balance the weight of the bike and the weight of the pillion! haha

i am still very much enjoying the friendship with this guy. can just talk anything with him anywhere anyhow. ride on bike also can chat like we are walking and chatting like that. haha.no need to shout or repeat cause he experienced enough to hear what i say.




this is the guy, i have been talking about :)

tmrw gotta go school. haha. another 15weeks of school to go! and here we go to year 3 of poly liaos. so fast! i still remember when in secondary school that time i always think people in poly are so "adult" that kind, like i am still stuck in sec 1 that kind so young and all. well, in the blink of the eye now i'm in poly liao, year 2 somemore, haha yet i feel that its nothing special lor.

eh! i just finished supper with my primary school friends. all mixed mixed one. haha, its quite funny sometimes when we talk we get "stucked" like that, like suddenly will go into the awkward mode liao cause all quiet but some will try to break out in laughter or what one. its quite amusing to come to think of it. we also tried to remember some of the people we knew and were quite close to one, and they mentioned this guy i remember i was quite close to him one! as in you know suddenly this surge of primary school feel came to me and its quite pleasant actually.

so in life actually like right now things are happening the way it is but it forms the memories in future so why not try to make it nice and all and stop brooding over any unhappy past or happenings to make yourself happier right now? well. but life is contradicting sometimes.

pardon me for all that is happening right now :(

can any kind soul please advise me on what to do?

today my mum is on off, she was home the whole day. the first thing i heard when i got home was her voice, her voice at the top of her lungs scolding my maid, again. she uses quite a bad tone to scold her and she would do this every other day because sometimes my maid forgets/ dont do things the way the old maid used to do.

on one side, i pity the maid because i think its really really not easy to bear with the scoldings every other day. even sometimes early in the morning also tio gan until your father come home one. even i also can get awaken by her voice. i feel that my maid is very initiated and sometimes i try to affirm her and talk to her and let her know that my mum can be too stressed with work and still have to handle household stuffs even when she get home that explains but her temper is also quite bad one thats why =(

imagine you are at work and your boss keep scolding you and all. if it was me i would have !!!@#$ you know.... sigh.

i have tried to stand up for the maid many times but sometimes my mum say till like i always on outsider's side and she would say i like not her son always help others but i am just trying to help her see from another point of view. sigh, its not right to just see her cont scolding leh.. howhowhow?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?

help!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is Mr Lee. on the way to his red/purp hair!





the end result after we bleach away all the lupsup hair. or should i say we just lupsup-ed our own hair cause we bleached it so long? haha. i will post the final end result after i get the pictures. my mum and dad say not nice =( but so far my friends say its nice! haha. i''m okay one lah also do lerh, anyway different people different perspective hor? (make myself feel better!) =)

Hi all!

it was my first day of school yesterday! it didn't really started out well because i was late! =( i wasn't late because i woke up late or what. i was late because i had to walked a big round to class cause the school locked all doors and we could only enter through the main entrance for temperature checking using the thermal sensor machine. the day started not very pleasant firstly because i slept for one hour before i went to school cause i have to rush for my PP. next it was because normally new class very quiet one, then the facil were saying depressing things when he could not get us talking. by the way my facil's name is call TIAN CHYE! genius you see. haha.

this was the conversation between him and the class:

class were quiet, not active.

tian chye: (asking some questions, no one replies)
class : still quiet..
tian chye: hey you know we are in this PBL environment for a reason if you guys do not want to start talking we will stay like this till the end of the day and i can grade you guys accordingly.
class: some started to giggle(me), some started smiling(cause like no need do work!).

yeah i was whispering to my friend that this old man quite depressing leh. but guess what? he is actually a humourous guy! haha, after the class started to "warm up" abit we were working and all and you can hear him joking with some of the class people and i really had a good time laughing! sometimes people can be at their form if we give them a chance to! haha.

yup, so back to the title of the day. what is life?
haha, sometimes i think to myself what is life?
i am uncertain what is the true meaning. at different phrases of life i have a different perspective. sometimes i think life is at my prime now i should enjoy to the max! sometimes i think life is mundane that i should make use of my time wisely and impactfully , like you know people like mother teresa and all.

well. i just thought that, in life, we make our own choices, decisions. while doing my PP today, the SPF had a value like being loyal, in terms of morals. so it stated something like they stay strong to their beliefs and ideals. this intrigued me to think that i always have this belief that we should not ever regret what we do. because we have a sensible mind of our own, before we do something, it went through a thinking process, and we agree to it at that point of time so i never like regret at things that i have did like for eg i spend alot money on things which are not necessary. of course that does not mean that i am trying to self-deceive that i should abandon all my emotions or what when i did something bad, but more of getting over with it and moving on.

also staying strong to your values does not mean that you cannot make any mistakes. to me, it means that whether after making the same mistake, do you :

1)give up and continue with your mistake?
2)move on and try your damn best to not do it again?

to me i will take the second way out.

i think as humans, we should have a own set of values, that we hold close to, that we inculcate since young. you never know how important it is to start young sometimes, some things you only see it when the time has come.

for now, right now, i think life for me is to faster chiong finish my PP!! haha and to show loads of L-O-V-E to my mum,dad,sisters,grandparents! to not compromise my values in life.

haha, i'm not emo-ing =)

it has been more than a year right now, that my dad and mum has started the Antarctica war. for me, it has been quite a sad experience at first but now it is getting better.

i still remember last time my mum almost everyday will curse and swear at my dad one, always arguing about money and all. and the nonsense never ends one, just keep going on and on and on and on...... she would even say what want divorce, want to go jump, want me to quit school and all, but well, its all words of anger lah..

now, i think its great that sometimes they bump into each other when on the bus or what and my mum would come home telling me how awkward it was to see my dad, to say hello to him, and there was once that he even sat beside her! haha. when i heard the incident i laughed too! lol.

now i can see that my mum is more open now, in a sense she dont curse him and all, partially because i know that she herself see that dad got himself a good post at job, and that he is fiancially more stable lerh. i really hope we can go back to the old times where we can go eat as a family at a chinese restaurant and see my mum holding my dad walk and his face filled my pride that kind of feel, i can never forget one, haha.

but all in all, i really really want to thank all those who have prayed/still praying for me and my family members. my cell leaders, my cell members, BB officers, and whoever that has been praying. i may not be in the best position to say what i am going to say next due to my current situation i am in, but i know that God is always in control, thats something i cannot deny, that i cannot treat it as a "lucky" occurrence about things that has been happening in my life since then till now.

=)

Recently, i have been spending alot of time with my bike. and the times are filled with my sweat and my energy, and of course having to face how people looked at me. why do i say this, because just the past two weeks alone my bike has been towed twice, and i have pushed my bike quite a distance to the bike shop twice too. all these were done sweating, panting, and onlookers looking at this young man pushing his bike to dontknow where.

for past two months since i got my license, my bike were serving well, no problems, just some regular maintainance did the job. but nowadays it has been getting cranky and i really dont know what is the problem with it, but well, $ did the job.

i have been pondering whether is it i bought over a faulty bike or whether is it getting old, or whether is it got some buggers were trying to get something out of the bike when it was parked and all. i have thought of the probabilities and i am also quite sian whenever ride halfway it get stucked or whatsoever.

through all these, i have learnt that even in bad times, you can really learn things out from it too. like how i enjoyed to walk back to my house from the bike shop after i pushed it all the way there. i also gained some "experience" on bike and get to know/understand it better after going through the same thing over again. i have also learnt to "treat $ more openly". i dont really know how to explain the treat $ more openly but i think to put it simply is to not treat $ as a too important thingy which is a must have thing in life. and also i began to understand more of my parents hard work slogging away to "maintain" us, just like how i try to maintain the bike.

well, i am really thankful so far no accidents or so and i am really very grateful for that. so well, if you have a positive mindset, things around you will look more positive too! :)

these days, it has been fun hanging out with the LSG. they are the people whom i know since secondary 1, may not be that close then, but i think its different now. we can talk about anything, and we are very open about certain stuffs which you never even think of sharing it with your normal friends one. and all that hanging out with them reminds me of what i read from one of my BB officer's blog. he mentioned about the "advantage" in a sense to say that even though it is difficult at first to "enter" into someone's life, it can be tough, challenging and all but at the end of the day, its worth it when you broke the invisible wall successfully and in the future under whatever circumstances you will be able to communicate even the deepest affairs of the heart without much difficulty. haha how true :)

well i have also been thinking about setting up the right values at home. especially when my sisters now are older now and they are learning all the "craps" from my parents and i very fast, and they are getting more and more witty as time goes by. i am quite conscious about how i behave at home, the way i talk, the way i handle problems like between my mum and dad, or when my mum scolds my sisters and i will observe how they react to the situation. i only step in when i feel that perhaps the way my sisters react might not be the best way out and i will try to talk to her and all.

its not easy , to bring yourself down to their level, to think like them, to be forgiving about their mistakes because i myself do it last time. but i think its very important for them to grow up with certain values that will stay with them throughout their endeavor in life next time and to build a very close-knitted brother-sisters relationship with them!

i cant wait for the time when i have to be there to "educate " them about things like clubbing,drinking,smoking, etc and all.. well still long to come..

i just did 4 things:

i made soft boiled eggs.
i made milo.
i made toasted kaya bread(slighly chao tar)
i scald my mouth and i am feeling the skin which is peeling off at the top of my mouth.

and know what?
the fourth thing i did really irritates me right now.
ouch