Monday, March 29, 2010 @ 3:16 AM
Been long since i last blogged,
Uh humans are weird isn't it.. I still remember the last few weeks before school ended for year 2, everyone were looking-forward for the holidays to come, but now, somehow i hope for school to start? Haha , very funny i know but i'm sure this feeling will die off in no time to come when school starts and life is back to waking up early for school. Well, not too bad but quite sad that i didn't get to travel during this break, urgh.. the attachment is to be blamed for.
Recently i started to go to the arcade to revisit my childhood, you know we get addicted to the catch the fluffy toys with those "catcher" and games like that . Yeah, inevitable that sometimes you spend and do not get anything in return, and you may tell yourself that why not just go to Mini Toon and get the soft toy straight rather than spending the money and may not even get any prize at all. Well, i guess people pay not only for the toy, but for the fun of it too. True that you can go to Mini Toon and get a soft toy directly over the counter, but i guess the "satisfaction" or "victory" feel will not be there , so indirectly, you are payingfor that "feel" ?
Yup, people always say that when something is there, you don't cherish it as much as something that you fight hard for. Ha, so true. Family, that's a very good example. Your Mum, Dad, siblings, grandparents, these people are blood-related to you, yet sometimes, we cast them at the back of my head, I'm terribly guilty of that.
Hmm, i guess the first step to fix things up is by acknowledging the problem, come up withasolution, talk about the solution and finally, put it in action. like how I will try to wake up early on Sundays for myAh gong, like how i will try to follow my mum out when she has her off day, like how i will try to visit mygrandparents by myself like soon.. I'm trying to list out these "solutions" so that i'm at the stage wherebyi know this is theproblem, and the solution is out, action is all that is needed to be taken.
Life is always good, as long as you learn to be contented.
Monday, March 15, 2010 @ 1:49 AM
at this stage of my life, i find that im stuck in a "identity crisis" situation sometimes. sometimes i really dont know what identity should i take on, a good son? christian? ordinary boy under the blk? yes, i dont deny that im facing this sometimes, its just part of my life that im going thru.
many times, we think our life just sucks. but guess what? lets just be frank, we are just never contented with what we have. compared yourself now, and compare yourself in the scenario where say you are handicapped, which will you choose? compare yourself say you dont really have the best mum that you can ever ask for just ffor the little expectations of them from yourself, and compare to the people where they are born without a mum at all, which will you choose?
these are the thoughts which stands by me when i get caught up in a predicament. no doubt we people like to dream sometimes, blablabla, but most importantly at the end of the day we gonna know that if we are contented, life's great anyway~
Saturday, March 13, 2010 @ 12:03 AM
feeling very out of place now.. feels like it but better not to do it. :(
Monday, March 8, 2010 @ 2:45 AM
had a short conversation with dad right when he came back.
in that short 10 mins talk, it just felt so : wow!
its like i suddenly felt him caring for me, my safety, for my future.
with the questions he asked, injected with his usual sense of humour and him not even smiling at it, is just so HIM.
i think thats just his way of showing love.
simply p-r-i-c-e-l-e-s-s.
Thursday, March 4, 2010 @ 9:23 PM
i seriously need to fulfill the following cravings,
1)chocolate cake (comes to think of it, didnt get any cake this year! or rather, i spoiled the surprise of getting one:( bakerzin?
2)try out thin crusted pizza! heard that Sarpino's is good!
3)Ben & Jerry's~~
4)dim sum..
5)watch the lightning thief show! been aiming to watch it even before it launched when we saw it at Iluma!!
6) chilli crabb
@ 1:18 AM
for the past months, i have been haunted by my own words.
"what goes around comes around" a slogan which was hanged as a banner in my pri school in the six years of my education there. a slogan i never understood its "true" meaning until the later part of life.
many things in life i really want to rant about, i want to pour it out, every bitterness/anger/unhapiness/grunts. but, at the end of the day i think i made someone felt the same way too, in a way or another im tasting my own medicine, i got to stand in others shoes and going thru the same emotion breakdown etc.
i dont think its healthy to do this, but seriously, i really dontknow how to go about pouring it out. thank you to the people who showed me what love was, to my BB OFFICERS, church people. because of you guys, i learnt how to love, even though when its tough, but, at the same time i understand how you guys must have felt when you guys loved in the first place.
im still learning/growing, pls give me a second chance
