@ 12:14 AM
i'm quite glad i went home to accompany my mummy today. i was feeling so "far away" from my mum the past few days, like don't have all the talking with her make me feels sad. but today we get to sit down, and talk even though she always rant about my dad and what but still, i think sometimes she herself needs someone to complain to after working everyday.
she suddenly ask me about my license stuff also. she asked how come i did it so fast somemore she thought i "bought" over the license because she never thought one could get a license that fast. the best thing was she even said she allow me to get a bike. haha. after she said that, i had a hard time within my mind to whether should i tell her that actually i already got liao since this is a perfect opportunity. hmm, but i didn't tell her yet lah. i also don't know why. but its really good, to hear her say that if i have a stable job and earn my own income, she would allow me to vroom around =)
does that mean my prayers has been answereD? =)
*by the way there was this time after i went for a job meeting then at the traffic light there was this powerful harley beside me, george and i kept looking at it at that caucasian turned and smiled to us, somemore giving us a wink. haha, why they so cool and friendly one.
this shows that in life you dont have to look pretty to be pretty. a good heart is in fact more important than looks. looks only further enchance your natural beau.
Cell Retreat
Tuesday, June 23, 2009 @ 3:40 PM
The big birthday card for the birthday uncle. haha
the uncle and the wife
the super yummy all time favourite chocolate fudge cake!
the guys
worship session during retreat
the aaron who is sooooooooooo scared of the dogs. always alert whenever his radar senses the dogs. ha!
quote of the day : To show you a little of my appreciation, i will give you a ferrari for FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
the relapse
@ 1:33 AM
time now : 1.34am
current status : unable to sleep
its 1.34am now. i switched off my com 40 mins ago in an attempt to go sleep so that i can wake up for school tmrw. yet halfway through, the relapse came .
i cannot remember since how many years back then, this relapse starts to come. the relapse that is always filled with the heavy burden on my heart, my family.
every individual : mum, dad, grandma, grandfather, grandparents in HongKong, my two younger sisters.
this is the only soft spot of my heart, whenever i think back of the memories with these loved ones, tears will just stream down unstoppably. i still remember the small prayer i made long time ago, to keep all of them safe, give them good and long health.
despite the flaws they each have, i still love them loads. the memories with everyone of them is always etched in my mind, memories of love from them.
God please hear my prayer one more time. to mend this broken relationship in my family, nevertheless, to help me to love them in whatever ways i could, and to treasure them dearly.
Monday, June 22, 2009 @ 11:54 PM
always speak with grace, you never know when your words can be stuck in a person's mind for long.
@ 10:51 PM
when you want something, another has to be sacrificed. i was thinking to myself, how come i am feeling so broke. then i look at my sister beside me who is playing pet society. i started to think about last time, i don't have to worry about money, yet i felt that i am bored, hoped for more freedom etc..
now i have it, i feel that i am having lack of money etc.. its just like when sometimes you change something to your advantage, you are putting someone else at disadvantage or you have to sacrifice another thing.
well, i cannot imagine if i start to reflect when i am 50 years old. or even when i start to work, why i would be complaining now when i am leading the life of a student who has loads of free time and don't need to slog my life the whole day like my mum/dad.
i think maybe its about being contented with what you have now. not wishing for all the new phones/stuff that you don't really need and life would be simple and biblical too .
@ 8:48 PM
my weekend was great!
had cell bonding on sat where we had stayover till sunday at joe's house. i believe we had a good time together and i could feel that our people are getting onto "high" mode again! the kind of feeling which we once had when we were on our peak.
we also caught the show "bed time stories" by adam sandler. and there we got our new joke where we can get a ferrari for : freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. ha!
come to think of it, six more months to end of year, that's really fast! i still remember the day when i kept looking forward to my tp, it was march then. now its already june going to july. its always easier to look back to see how time passes rather than waiting for time to pass.
help me to love school. i want to develop self-discipline
Thursday, June 18, 2009 @ 1:04 AM
oh man, i cannot remember who told me Megan Fox were actually a guy before. and i want to take back my words to some of my friends that i said her face actually look abit like guy because after looking at a interview with shia ( the main actor in transformers) and megan fox, i cannot believe shes actually so pretty. hoho next tues, the transformers! somehow, i feel like going to watch it alone! i dontknow why, i think i will do it.
you know sometimes in life, we might be fighting too hard for our own what we perceived as "rights". i think sometimes it really works better if we can keep quiet and don't allow other's perception to affect us so much as that would just show our lack of confidence and make you look so insecure with yourself. (its actually not me who is in this situation but rather something that i have been thinking about since yesterday when some things happened and i just want to voice out so much and i guess the blog will be a good place to do so)
sometimes i think it takes a confident person to take criticism positively and be able to RESPOND in situations and not REACT. but well. =)
Confidence
Tuesday, June 16, 2009 @ 1:32 AM
this is feeling so great. not much burden is on hand. feeling excited and looking forward to cell bonding coming weekend. also fathers day, buying a electronic shaver for dad. hope he will like it and show me the smiling face.
the camp definitely grew me closer with the Boys, like the sec 3s. asking me out to lan and outings with them, it will definitely be fun. seems like theres no hard feeling between us even thru the stern talking to some of them sometimes during the camp. thank God for it.
my sister becoming more and more high tech, adding my friends thru facebook, chatting to them even. like asking fat whether she is my gf, talking to weijie abt BB stuffs, randomly agreeing to wash joe's dogs for him.
omg.. is this the next phrase of my life? to handle my sis and play gunbound with them. haha. maybe should take them on a ride on the bike and make them scared! lol, they not supposed to know about my bike, only my license card =)
cannot imagine one day drive and my mum stops beside me on a cab on something. i think i will laugh out loud first. ahaa.
Sunday, June 14, 2009 @ 9:41 PM
back from the what seems so short camp.
went to sleep with a shock news from my maid and woke up feeling all nua from the overnight cycling.
my maid told me my mum was the one who signed for the registered post which sends my driving license -_-
and my act funny mum still hides the fact that she knows i have a license without smsing me or asking me anything about it. haha. wonder what she will say tonight, wonder what i should answer to the various questions that she will pop up with. we shall see again.
through being placed in charge of this company camp, i have learnt many new things, gained new exposure to what it takes for a good planning to take place, and how we should manage our tasks / time etc..
i have felt that i grown closer to people like karjun/andy thru this camp. mainly because of the planning that we have to do together. also the bonding with the Boys, lasting through the grueling overnight cycling and challenging the Boys to not give up from my team! very fun leh i feel.
haha, i feel challenged to plan for better camps next time, i also hope this whole camp will be a good reminder to the results it will produce despite the stres that you have to face to plan and coordinate for the camp. =)
Thursday, June 11, 2009 @ 12:42 AM
original bag
the brand : CloudWalker
new brand : VESPA
three places in a day yesterday. but all search in vain, except a eastpak bag which costs $85. i didnt get anything after a long search at queensway and amk.
today, i bought my bag above. $13! plus a little change of the logo because i didnt like the original one. hope the manufacturer dont read my blog. serves the same purpose, similar design/look+80% creativiy = cheap and nice bag.
happy me.
actually when i was getting all tired from the search for it, i didnt know why, but i was thinking inside my mind, i was questioning God:why?
i guess, sometimes good things comes later.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009 @ 3:10 AM
its a fact, its a reality. its not at all easy to own your own mode of transport unless you are working!
and thereafter, please do not steal things if you are not financially stable to support your own mode of transport and steal ppl's voltmeter / kickstarter and make others start their engine by throwing clutch while going down the ramp!
spare me ahhhhhhhhhhhhh
