Friday, April 30, 2010 @ 2:51 PM
PLAN GOES DOWN THE DRAIN :(
@ 2:38 AM
seriously, when you dont know what happen, just keep your mouth shut. dont add fuel to fire, it just doesnt look good on you, and it doesnt help either. im sorry for this, but i just cant stand it and i really feel like whiining it out.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010 @ 10:00 AM
Have you ever been through a situation where you tried out something/method/work style which is different from what you usually do and you get ugly stares/disapproval/talks by others?
Or have you ever state your point of view about something, stating how it should be done, suggesting ways, supported with what you feel is right and people just give you the :"oh , is it?" facial expression?
To me it seems similar to introducing reforms in countries/workplace, etc.. well its never easy to bring people out of their comfort zone, to believe in something different out of which they have already stood on their own beliefs for don't know how many donkey years.
Yes you will have to go through all the unpleasant things but well, if it was easy in the first place, any Tom , Dick & Harry can do it! so, you are no different from the rest if its easy. if its easy to get told off unreasonably, to try to be nice yet unappreciated, to do all the right things, anyone could do it.. .
these are some of the things , that set you apart from others, a notch higher..
Tuesday, April 20, 2010 @ 1:26 AM
At times, i think to myself, is life about making choices?
Choices like whether you choose to respond optimistically with a smile in a situation, or whether you choose to "react" and engage yourself in the dull and gloomy chain thoughts?
well, i especially said "react" is because simply, i feel that, if we want, we CAN be happy about it. whether you choose to shout back at someone who really gets on your entire nervous system, or maybe you would like to show the person some "grace" since well, to comfort yourself, people in your life DO show some, else, much "grace" on you at one point or another.
almost all the times, you see comments in facebook that describes the sad moment of a person's life, or when people "hang their dirty laundry" publicly, or so and so.. well ,i guess, when we are "indulged" in our own set of thinking and emotions at a particular time, we tend to overlook the other spectrum of thoughts which is so beautiful and, sad to say, plunged into the state of what we like to call :"E-M-O" haha!
come to think of it, maybe even as im typing now, i also have my own "blind spot" which i missed out, which comes to think, is quite funny as it sounds like im shooting myself. hahaa.. well, mistakes helps you to grow, but dont indulge in the emotions that follows when a mistake is made.. aiyah dont know what i am talking.. work too much, too tired perhaps..
Thursday, April 15, 2010 @ 2:26 AM
School is starting tmrw! kind of looking forward to it! heh!
As i was taking my shower, with the mist-like spray coming from the shower , i really felt calm and refreshed, taking my own sweet time to stay longer in the bathroom, to apply conditioner , to really clean myself thoroughly. (not that i don't do that everyday, just that it's more of a rush job compared to just now.)
Of course, digesting at some thoughts which came to my mind. As i was pondering through, i don'tknow whether it's the optimistic side of me or what, but i always tell myself that whenever something unpleasant happens, just take it in its stride, to see it as something that will make me stronger despite how unpleasant i may feel at the moment, and of course to be careful in how i deal with the situation, not allowing emotions to overwhelm me and do the "what i think i'm right to do" .
Yeah, i'm quite glad, that i'm able to think this way, well, some people may just think i'm happy-go-lucky.. but well, believe it anot, it's really up to how someone CHOSES to think. Any kind, whether good/bad/pleasant/shocking situations can happen to any one , anywhere, but you are the one who choses how you want to see it and respond to it at the end of the day. It's up to you, whether you wanna put in the lil bit more of effort, to sacrifice a lil bit more, or go that lil bit more to make someone smile, its really up to you!
:D life's good as long as you think it's good. hha!
yay hope i wont be late tmrw =x night ppl!
Thursday, April 1, 2010 @ 1:04 AM
De javu.
Not exactly De javu, but the same scenario is happening over again. On the same bed, leaning against the wall with my laptop on my laps, across me is my dad, legs stretched across resting on the study table, using the desktop.
For a moment, i took a glance at what my dad is doing, there he is, staring into one of the picture which he double clicked on from "My Pictures". It was the photo of Joey taken in the aquarium back then at Wisma, which i scanned into the desktop for her. As i was looking at Dad staring at the picture for a long time, our minds seems to connect together. Suddenly, tears filled my eyes, flashbacks of the good old times where our family went to turf city to have a sumptuous dinner together. Back then, Mum would hold Dad's hand and walk together, Joey was a cute little girl then, who would never talk back to me at all, and me, always walked with such pride and happiness because i knew I'm in for a feast .
Flashbacks of times when Joey/Baby talked to Dad came to my mind, the way,the attitude, the tone, the body language was totally rude and disrespectful for a child towards a adult, worse of all, they are talking to their father. My blood always boils instantly when my sisters do these kind of things, especially towards my father, which whenever i think of it, it would produce that adrenaline of hatred towards my Mum, because she didn't teach them the right thing, when she was angry with my Dad, she made my sisters hate him too, something i really hated.
Then again, i really felt like crying, thinking when the times would be back again, whether will it be too late by then if it comes back? I don't know. Sometimes, i really feel so useless.
