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the God i know, is someone who loves unconditionally. you will never know what is the meaning of loving someone unconditionally until you experience His love for yourself.

the God i know, is someone who has super ultra strong will. He will never give up on you, no matter how you fall times and again, He gives you a second chance, the third chance, the fourth, and so on. as long as you are willing to repent.

the God that i know, works in ways where you would never even expect ! sometimes you wont even know that He has worked!

the God that i know, is Jesus.

sometimes i really prayed hard for my fellow friends, my good friends esp, that God will touch them, that they will experience God themselves. the feeling and experience is just so unique,special, wonderful that really really cant be described by words! its that kind of you have to try it before you know it.

this is the prayer that i've been praying for my dear friends, friends whom i care for. that God will really work in His own way in you, that you will have a one-of-a-kind experience that only you yourself can comprehend. and when that happens , your eyes would be opened, and know who is the king.

amen

i dont know why ever since joven's birthday, i seems to have this thought that keep running in my head.

but in any case, God i pray that i will have a decent 18th birthday in march next year. (eh jie,kai,ale,joven,des. gerald dont read blog one, if you all want birthday bash look for him yeah ^^)

but still, 人生就如一朵花. what goes around , comes around. aha ; ) !

hmm, i seems to have some memory problem nowadays. for one moment i'm able to think of what i want to say to people, or what to blog about. but when i'm at the dashboard, there seems to be a mental block suddenly, and no matter how hard i try, i just cant remember what i wanted to blog about initially.

yup! and i'm glad to tell everyone that today is fri! fri is a happy day, know why? cause the next day is weekend. i cant wait for the outing in the afternoon tmrw, can't wait for YA, cant wait for the midnight movie + stayover. and all the more i cannot wait for sunday service tgt with FF since it has been a super long time ever since we went to church, and sit together yeah! = )

sometimes i feel that i'm all on my own in this world. it's sad to see that almost everywhere is filled with deception and inconsistency. but i thank God. that i have at least ONE friend that i can like 100% trust them and have 0% doubts. these people are hard to come.

人生就如一朵花， 对吗死党？

hey! had a lonely walk, or rather, it felt like an expedition to me.

i was recee-ing for areas for games for upcoming youth camp. i really walked all the way! kind of regret that i didnt proceed with my initial idea of cycling there =(

anyway thank God there's my itouch to last me thru. my phone almost died on me on the way though. i'm super hungry when i got home! that i resort to frying two omelettes plus 5pieces of bread to go along with. drinking icy cold water ! my fav drink! haha

why i titled this post as new achievement is because i cooked by my own! i dont 亲自下厨 one because i've got a helper around at home . but i feel good lah, cause i managed to fill my stomach!

tmrw is VB coding , quite put off leh. but cannot lah. must last thru the 6 more weeks of studies with my new perspective arh.

it's really great to worship God

hey! ha.
yesterday was clavis's birthday. i gave her a bag for her present. she said she liked it though...

anyway i was thinking to choose btw a bag or the HSM3 disc for her, but coming to think that the songs can be downloaded, i've bought the bag for her instead.

yesterday as i was spending half an hour to talk with joey, i've realised one similarity btw us.

as i was talking to her, asking her some, conscience-poking questions, she started sobbing, even when i expected that before hand and tried to talk in my softest, and most patience-filled tone ever.

haha. that's quite cute as it reminded me of myself in the past, where i would start sobbing whenever my grandparents, or my parents ask me some of this conscience-poking questions, or when i felt i wasnt in the wrong but i'm too afraid to raise my voice to justify for myself. therefore as young kids, we use our ulti. that is to sob.

haha. but i'm glad i've managed to have a good talk with her. even though most of the time i was the one blabbing away(as she was too scared to "object"), then i made her promise me two stuffs.

at first i used a mp3 to tempt her. i said, you want your mp3 right? so you better you at me into the eyes when we talk and answer my questions. haha. it works man! lol. yeah i made her promise me the next time when i talk to her, that she will respond to me, and dont cry.

yeah, half the time i was thinking of how to put what i want to say in a funny way, so that she could laugh out of it. but half the time i failed though when she was too busy sobbing
ahahaha.

anyway . i felt like being a kid once again = )

hi readers! ha. dont be stunned by my title. i did not drink! what i meant was the pain that still lingers in my stomach. now and then i feel a sharp pain. ouch! then my appetite fluctuates also. aiyoh. it bothers me quite a lot.

met joshua yeong and george for dinner just now. they had kfc. i had a cup of lemonade. it taste good! = )

after that kevin came to meet us. then we just relax and talk together lor.haha.

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hmm. to me, i was thinking about some of the phrases people sometimes uses. for eg, "nobody is perfect"
yeah, i mean. i think sometimes i myself uses that too! but sometimes do people use it as a "cover" for themselves? its just being used like its a norm?

i'm not sure about you. but i guess, it the heart, the motive you have is what really matters.in life, sometimes we feel that we have been doing a good job, or rather, a satisfactory one. but what often slips our mind is the "criticism" people give in one way or another. sometimes we just tried to reason it out? or do we really ponder upon it?

haha.

but anyway. i thank God still for being with me through the whole day. i have been praying throughout the wholeday i supposed. praying for grace and patience. thank God for granting me a lot of it! that i lasted through the day!

i enjoy every morning when i wake up on time, i dont have to rush, and i have ample time to prepare and get ready to go to school.

what i enjoy most is the walk from the interchange to school today. the morning breeze was very welcoming, and i felt very cooling. the fact that i can take my own sweet time to walk slowly to school, that's very satisfying!

yeah. i've realised everyday a lot of cognitive process has been going on in my mind. esp in the morning when i'm on the bus, or when i'm walking to school.

everyday, bus 25 would pass by this french school. and you know i have always been quite captivated by those Caucasians who attend the school. i dont know why but there is just this "attraction" in these group of people which will always capture my attention.

haha. i think people like FF will be able to identify with that though ; )

hey readers!

hmm, yesterday was kind of like a long day for me! it started out with our zonal bonding! had a good time walking the errr, hortpark.

it was also my first time using a polaroid camera! its really cool !

but the sad thing is that not many people turn up =(

yah so went for service, then to joyce's CO concert. i was really impressed by the two guys playing the pipa. i guess if they apply their skills to a electric guitar or what, they would be very good lead guitarist!

also the person playing the err. i dont know. the one u uses two thin "sticks" to play one. they are really good.

anyway at then, my body started to feel really unwell. even b4 that on the train there, i felt nauseous. also dont know why. after the concert, no appetite totally! when their food came, i felt even more like puking, or even the look at the foods made me feel turned off.

this is weird. anyway i left first. and the trip home wasnt any better too. similar feeling. also got down at outram to puke. but i just stood there for a while and it got slightly better. the whole feeling was just flatuacting.

went home i immediately went to sleep. till this morning. i woke up early. thank God i regain my appetite slightly. but i felt very weak all over. didnt attend church. i went on to rest. till 3pm. till feel weak. even when i took a shower, no energy to raise my hand to wask my hair.

anyway. i've got reminded of something that i read last time. its about worshipping God, giving thanks. that in proverbs it says something like it is good to give thanks even in the bad times .

and i really thank God for it, that i get to have a good sleep even though my body still doesnt feel good. i thank God that the nauseous feeling was gone. it was quite a horrible feeling. since young i dont like to vomit one. it just feel. ARGH!

yeah. later jie joven and ale coming my hse to "visit" me. =)

today i named my post = being on time.

why ? because i have been thinking about this topic. i was someone who were never once on time last time.
9 out of 10 times i would be late one.

but i'm better now, because ever since then i told myself i want to change out of it .
so recently i meet my friends, and sometimes they are late.
then for me i felt quite annoyed. because i feel that it takes effort for someone to be on time, to fix a time to meet, so that plans can be laid ahead of time.

then while i was waiting for my friend, i felt that for me, i made a lot of effort to prepare beforehand, i could have used the time to maybe sleep longer, or do my own stuffs awhile longer.

all these are what i meant by intentional efforts. for someone to want to be on time, they will think ahead, of exactly how long beforehand they have to start preparing, some may even reach earlier so that in case any last min stuff cropped up like traffic jam.

yeah so this is just a thought of mine, that i think, to be on time is one of my priorities. its very important in many aspects, and you wont know everytime you are late, you caused unnecessary trouble for the other party who tried to be on time.

hi readers! yeah, i had a long day today man!

last night, george was at my house helping me to do some stuff. in the end cannot work leh. so we end up rushing to his house to do as he has all the applications there in his com. i wanted to rush for the last bus so that i could be home. but the thing took too long, in the end, there wasnt even a last bus for me to catch!

way back in my brain, i have decided to take a cab, but after reconsidering that it costs so much, i have decided to stayover at his hse and get home the following morning.

so we went for prata, by the time i reach his house, i really cannot take it, i k.o-ed at 3am.
so i woke up by 630am, went to bus home, bathed and went school.

to my surprise, i was very energetic during the first meeting, but by the 2nd meeting, my energy bar were reduced to less than half. i was quite "isolated" from the class discussion in a way.

so 2nd break came, i took a one hour nap. wow. it was so comforting even though my head felt a surge of pain after i woke up. yeah. so todays problem was easy , i think my team did a good job!

anyway after everything, at night we planned for a surprise for joven. its his birthday today . we went fairprice, bought coke,mineral water, eggs, flour , mentos, and a cake.

so our plan, opps or should i say my si dang's plan were to firstly sing him a song. the cake were supposed to land on his face, then, each of us were to break the egg and smear it on him. then, the flour comes in. then coke will be splattered on him too.

anyway, we gathered under a block opposite amk hub. then, we set up our "base" , with all the bags of flours ready, each with a egg on our hand.

finally the nan zhu jiao arrived. we walked out in a row, singing song to him. u can see from his face that he was very happy one lah. cause the night b4 we all like pretend we forget his bday. nvr wished him or what.

so he made a wish, then the plan went unleashed!

haha. cake on his face, eggs on his body, flour everywhere, lastly mentos in coke sprayed on him. aiyoh. such a disaster. then you know. here i going to tell you 5 reasons why i think joven can be my good friend.

1)he got raw eggs on his body
2)it was mixed with chocolate cake
3)and coke
4)and flour
5)and he came and hugged me -_-

wah i tell you arh. then i didnt spare him ler. chase him with the flour. actually overall all of us got dirty. but, by the time we came back to our base, another friend of ours set up a bigger base there, and that was the police.

someone complained we were being a nuisance, making too much noise. so we were listening to the short sharing by the officer, they went off and we clean up the place . (i hope i dont do these kind of job if i were to get into SPF in the near future)

anyway i enjoyed myself, even though i felt quite yucky that my clothing got the smell of the mixture, and i had to bear with it on the way home on 25!

so as i was on the bus, i was pondering. why people thought of these "creative" ideas to celebrate bdays. who has the most fun in the end? haha.

hi readers! i borrowed my mummy's camera, then i saw these old photos that we took back then. we went to HK as usual, together with my dad, my cousin.

the girl on the left is my cousin. btw i only got three cousins. all female. all older than me. the second one is my younger sis, joey. next to her is clavis, the youngest one. followed by my youthful looking mummy.
they are my sisters. hmm. when i looked back at these pictures. i dont know why i just feel this special bond between my sisters and i. maybe its because we are related by blood that's why?

i thought to myself is this what you called love? love for your sisters, for your family. i dont use the word love very often. seldom for my family even.

then i thought to myself, a lot of times i try to reach out to others, my BB Boys, people around me, why have i never tried very hard to reach out to my sisters?

but i think, i am doing that more compared to last time. i am closer to my sisters, but i think there are more that i can do to reach out to them

i have always felt very burdened for my family. i dont know why, sometimes in the middle of the night i would just think about them, think about their goodness towards me, think about the times we had together when i was still very young back then.

uncontrollably, i would just start to weep. i would feel such a burden for them, to bring them to know God. because i really love them very much. they have helped me in my journey to growing up, and for the past 17 years we have been a family. and i really enjoyed the days back then when i had that close and intimate relationship with them. but not now anyway as they may feel distanced from me as i have grown up.

even then i still make the effort to be home when they come and visit my family.that's the least i could do.

this is the ocean park. the roller coaster not scary. but quite fun. this view was taken from the top when we were in this slowly moving err, machine. haha., and u can walk around and check out the great view from the top!
that man on my left is my dad! i know i look very tanned but that's not the main point. the reason why i put this photo is because even though i dont look good, i think my dad looks the best here among all the other photos. i remembered last time when i showed someone the pictures, he said that the shirt my dad wore was not very "in" in that sense. but i felt that my dad looked great because it was the few times you see him in a polo shirt. in fact i dont really see him in smart casual. he's always wearing the long sleeve formal. this is also the one he looked into the cam, and tried to smile i presume?

my dad has the genes of his mum. he always talk to me about those what you guys termed as "人生大道理". but i think he's one guy who can put up with my mum really well. he's someone whom i learnt from, in terms of handling my mummy. and also his way of talking, laughing. i find that some actions that i do is very similar to him!

well like father like son. i remember how others always say my dad and i look super alike. to the extent that my mummy said we just looked like the reflections of each other in the mirror.

well. i thank God for my family. for my mum, dad, grandparents, sisters.

end of year our BB coy is going to HK. to these few places. i think it would really be fun for those who never went there b4. i think for me, it would be a experience to fellowship with the Boys if i'm able to go.

yup. that's all for the day.

today is sunday . hmm. had a long night on friday. all was about walking and mostly running!
to me, the whole thing was fun! but at the end of the whole thing arh, i tell you my whole body shut down ler. i left like 2% energy to walk, and to talk. cant even smile.

something i like about this expedition is that i am able to spend time with my Boys. doing these kind of once in a while stuff together, it will hold much memories to them!

i remember before the trip, i gathered the Boys to prep-talk them. then wilfred in my team. he whole journey never complain at all! he didnt even talk!

haha. it was quite funny. and one of the Boys, jian ann, he was in my group too. after the whole thing he told me something about he learnt. i felt so glad! shianglin too. haha, all efforts were done worthwhile.

too bad i didnt get to take pic with them! i thought of bringing cam, but hor, i thought they would be too shag to even smile. so in the end i left my cam at home.

today overslept. didnt attend 2nd service. sigh feel so bad.

when is Linkin Park coming to sg again!??!
if RHCP come also can! =)

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hello!
hee.
today didnt run
but we swam!
swimming was much difficult than running!
but i enjoyed swimming!

today i ate a 10bucks dinner
at first i ate a 5 buck bbq grilled fish meal. but not full
so i ate fillet at mac.

you know. at mac there was this man sitting beside me, then hor, he took out this spray, cloth, and camera len,
and he was wiping the lens so carefully

when i looked at him, he look so meticulous! it looks as if his camera len was his everything! the way he wipe it, make me feels his passion and cautiousness for his len too!

it reminds me of times for example when i first bought my new phone or mp3. i would take care of it, wipe it now and then, cause it felt so precious. haha.

tmrw will be gg to celebrate jojo's birthday, =)

look like me? it was drawn by some "pro" artist. my neck was kind of "suan" posing for it =)

hey guys!

hee. today is a good start! thank God for the start of the day!
i woke up early, bus came on time, train came unusually on time too!

plus, b4 i left the house, i was deciding what to wear. since the sky looks cooling, i wore hoodie to school. praying hard the day wont be hot!

on the train, i was praying with my eyes closed , then when i opened my eyes, the sky became dark and gloomy. haha. and, it was a real cooling walk from the interchange to school! and whats more, it started to rain just as i reached school!

wow now the thunder sound is travelling all around! thank God for everything man! =)

hey readers!
thank God for the day!
today i woke up, i met the sec 1s at school. haha. it was a good start, thank God for always answering even our most belittled prayers =)

i didnt know yongsheng stay opposite me too! he stay at the same blk as kevin. haha.

we went sengkang to swim. many jokes for the day!
firstly, we took LRT, wanted to get to farmway, anyway we took the east loop instead of the west, went to wrong stop. we alighted took back. then they say dont alight casue it will connect to west loop. i believe lor. in the end, went wrongly, we went back sengkang again.

this time I directed them to the right path. then in the end they all blame for for bringing them wrongly. wah lau. not fair lor. but come come to think of it last time i also kind of bully my officer like that one.

yeah second joke of the day was, we were in the pool. there was this unknown guy swimming. george thought it was one of our Boys, he went to pntch his leg. wah i tell you that guy immediately reacted, give that pissed face. haha . shawn eng and i laughing arh. shawn said that guy even wanted to complain to the guard.

then we had a good time at the pool. went for prata att jalan kayu there. the mee goreng was nice! yongsheng didnt finish half of the plate leh. haha.

then hor. we went to shawn's house. wow its quite nice. the first thing i was attracted to was his two humongous golden retrievers! wah. they are so beautiful dogs!

next time not only i want to drive a car, i want to have dogs too! i long ago thought of having one, too bad my parents not very pet-y ppl. the most i only had two hamsters . that was considered my biggest achievement in having pets.

he also shared about his concept of having a waterfall like effect in his house linked to the fishtank. too bad it wasn't feasible, if not i can imgine how cool it would be!
some pictures to share with you guys!


this is the "ah boy"

he stands super tall! around my sister's height! he's a very rowdy dog. they have very special habits too!

this is the "ah girl" heard they say she quite timid when others is around. but usually she quite expressive one. she's very obedient!
btw that small girl is not their child. she's andy quek's niece. shawn say both of them look alike. really meh? haha. she also very cute! she would play with the dogs, she would make funny noises, when she talk she's really cute!

that's shawn's house! his dogs are really verty obedient and nice and fun to play with. my first time getting near dogs this big.its very fun!

after that went service with the Boys. very glad that they came even though some of them quite tired. yeah. i was also very tired then .

today didnt get to eat with cell again. have to go do up the games stuffs for youth camp. anyway. this is what it means by when you serve God, you have to make certain sacrifices sometimes.

but the trying out session with jiawei jolene wanhui and nick was good. julia wasnt feeling well. we dirtied the whole carpark. not whole but yeah. jiawei is very sporting, he went to try almost all, in fact all the not very clean game cause he got bring extra clothing.

was very tired when i reach home. really thank God for the answered prayers =)
He's really good

hey readers!
its really good communicating to God! =)

anyway, today quite a rushy day. after school, facil haven finish 6p, but it was 435 leh! then i look around, someone started to leave, so i asked for permission. before that my bag all these all packed ler, i have decided to do rj at home instead.

when facil granted permission, i grab my bag, and off i rushed out. walked briskly to interchange, every 10 steps i look at my watch, trying to keep to time.

went home, grab stuff go out ler. haha.

anyway i went to celebrate jw's birthday. advance birthday lor. cause on the actual day she got training. anyway. i've got quite a few nice pictures taken from VIVO!

Christmas is coming yeah!!!!!this is the humongous tree at the open space.
christmas at vivo. haha
this is the shining thingy jw saw. wah its quite nice to see from far!!!!!!!! beside it is like got alot of nice lightings. anyone know what is it?!?!?!?!?!?!? looks really nice from far.

when i was on the way home, i prayed to God. that He would grant me favour with the Boys tmrw! that the bonding would gel us tgt, let us open up to one another, so that i could be someone that they could look up to, to be a good friend to, that they would have fun together tmrw morning!

i also prayed for my dear brother joven, that God would really intrigue him, that He would stir up joven's mind, and bring him on the right track that has always been there before him! this was the prayer i prayed two weeks ago.

yeah. God is good! thank God for next week, that its a new week, new start, new day! that i would be able to influence ppl in my workplace (RP). !

Amen.

oh yah btw there was this joke. i told jw i saw a bat hanging on a tree. from far i thought it really looked like one. then, i said i wanted take picture of iT! but she said she wanted to go take it instead. after a while, i realised eh, it look like dead leaves. anyway, she came back with a doubtful looks, she asked is that really a bat. then i realised it was dead leaves! haha. it was really hilarious.

i'm quite exhausted.

this whole week i have been fighting a war, a war with the Zzz demon.
i admit that i have lost the war really really badly, i feel as if i'm throughly defeated, esp when this has been going on for everyday, except tues.

but definitely i'm not giving up hope! next week will be a new week! tmrw will be a new day!
i'm sure God is there for me to turn to.
i'm sure i can regain my routine of going school on time too!

hey guys! just a lil update!

i'm feeling quite happy right now! i dont know why, but i just feel quite happy. because i was walking home just now after supper then hor, got this chinese guy on a bicycle. he came up to me, wanted to ask me something.

at first i was kind of worried for a sec, cause it was quite late mah, anyway, when i looked at him, suddenly my mind went into chaos! because his face seems to match with one of the scene in my mind! then he asked whether i know how to speak chinese, so i said yeah. then he asked how to go to hougang street 21, so i asked which part he want to go, then he said the prata shop, the ABC one.

immediately, it was as if i struck the jackpot! he was the funny guy in the prata shop! i remembered the other time i went to eat with george, i was rushing him for the bill! but there was only one indian guy who were allowed to collect money you see, i wanted very long and kept gaving the chinese guy eye contact, trying to show i waited quite long.

anyway in the end, he smiled, his face look as if he were quite sorry to keep us waiting, but i think he very funny lah! and he was the same guy as just now. i pointed to him the direction to his shop, and he smiled again, seemingly to show gratitude.

haha. its a pleasant surprise after supper man! =)

hi! its quite a tiring day for me today!
almost everyone around me asked me how come i look so tired.. yeah i am! i think not enough sleep bah.

went to vivo with last sem classmates, those three guys. ty went to shop for his stuffs using his $100 new urban male voucher, yeah. i was dragging my heavy legs in vivo man! somemore have to carry the heavy burden on my back!

actually on the way there, i wanted to back out, cause was too tired. still decided to go anyway. so was walking, then i was msging my sec 1s . i quite enjoy doing that. but some not very cooperative one just kept msging me, then i spent one whole year persuading that guy. arghh. now i know last time when kevin tried to persuade me to do stuff, how difficult it was!

but its okay, it reminded me to sow in others, like how others sow in me =)

so now i'm home. i gonnaa sleep early tonight!

hey readers! today got quite bored in class. so decided to show you guys how my classroom looks like!
here you can see is a view of the front of the class, where our work is projected to the screen thru a projector from our laptop.
this is roughly how the table look like, the most can sit 5 pax. the chair is those roller chair lor, which you see in offices.


my today's work. some computing mathematical stuff. one module which i'm weaker in, and a module which i dont really enjoy. haha

yeah, after reading si dang's blog, he commented on how he know why i would in a sense" enjoy" coming to school after he visited my school and get explored to the interior design of the school.

despite the super long travel time which i take to come school, which is estimated 12times the travel time i need to go to YYSS. it was quite difficult for me to get used to the travelling time at first, i still remember within the first few weeks, i always whine to myself in my mind about the longggggg travelling time.

anyway now i guess more or less i'm used to it already, so the travelling time doesnt really affect me now.

hmm so why did i choose to come to RP? there are actually a few reasons to it :

1)because of God's grace
2)i didnt have a choice
3)it was the best way out of the alternatives

yeah, many of you may not understand how God played a BIG part in situating me in RP, but yeah. its definitely because of His grace. thank God for it

i was only given choices to various ITE, i actually kind of settled for dover ITE together with george, i could have been studying in the same course as me, being in the same class as him

out of all the choices for ITEs, of course the best choice were to go to a poly, in fact it doesnt really matter which poly you go to if you were in my situation too, it would be a bonus, a big bonus to be able to get into RP.

these are some of the reasons why it kept me going to school, even like now, i feel that class is quite bored in a sense i dont really have a clique in class, and a lot of time i do not really have someone to talk to about what i think, about how i feel.

sometimes they just openly talk about some things which is not very nice to share it openly, and one-third of the class would be able to identify with what they are saying and they all get engaged in the talk. so yeah, it may seems like i get left-out, but i see it as me choosing to be different from the rest.

but still, thank God that its not difficult to get to school, the only part which i kind of dread is the 10 mins walking distance to RP from woodlands inerchange. that's the only part where there is no air-con =(

but, the rest of the day is quite comfortable physically =)

in conclusion, thank God for everything! =)

yeah, but too bad my si dang would still choose NYP after the eye-opener in RP . haha.

hey readers. i have came across this site, which i deem as a very thought-provoking site for me personally. it speaks a lot to a leader, and to those who wants to be a leader.

http://legacy.pastors.com/RWMT/default.asp?id=364&artid=11462&expand=1

the link above in red, is a post by pastor Rick Warren.
his post talks about the three primary characteristics of leadership that God blesses.
in details he sum up the three primary characteristics of leadership; namely : integrity, humility, and generosity

when i read through it, i felt what he have said is really true.
one of the things he mentioned about influence is really good . he mentioned that influence is not about building a person, or yourself, but the purpose of influence is to speak up for those who have no influence! personally this is a strong statement for me, and it leads me to reflect on myself.

its a good question for those who are given influence to you by God, do you use your influence to build yourself?

hmm. hey readers.

this morning when i woke up, i was sitting at the sofa, stoning for a moment. and my mind, was working very fast!

very fast meaning it was filled with many thoughts, and one question came to my mind. "would it be better for one to be more direct?"

in this case, what i mean by more direct is for eg, when you feel that you need encouragement etc, you may want to blog it out, or display it on your msn nick, or you may drop a message to your good friend and let him/her know .

why i thought so is perhaps i thought this would allow communication to be more effective. sometimes you may come across this scene on a show/movie/drama, that the female lead tries to drop hints here and there, but seemingly that the hints were very obvious, the male lead didnt even get the slighest hint. and usually as we know, the interesting yet sad ending will be that the female lead gets all flared up, and decided that the guy is not the guy for her!

of course as a 旁观者we would sometimes see things where people cant see when they are undergoing the situation. but anyway, will it be good if we are more direct and dont beat around the bush?

this was taken by george at mac
this was taken by me at mac.
he "tried " to study by taking out his notes. but well, you should know what happen in the end =)

hey readers!

hmm, i just realised the blogger's clock is not accurate, meaning they dont depict the actual time of when i blog. anyway, that's not why i'm here to blog.

as i have promised in the last post, i would try to make my posts more "readable", post with more pictures, try to blog in proper english too!

yeah so actually i intended that this post is to tell you guys more about me!

let me show you some pictures and i will tell you more along the way:



alright! this is my study table, i mean, the top part of it. as you guys can see right, actually these are the trophies that i had when i was in primary school, but hey! i'm not trying to show off here, but i remembered i was very proud of what i have achieved last time when i was still young.

on the extreme left is actually a picture of me framed up. that was my "graduation" pic i took when i graduated from kindergarden!

then the picture on the extreme right is actually my grandfather. he took a picture infront of a nice fountain when he was on a trip last time, and he gave it to me. yah, anyway he's 60+ years old this year.

i'm not trying to show you guys my legs here, but i decided to take a pic of my bed. haha, come to think of it it looks quite childish with the mattress cover. but anyway, you guys can see the smaller-sized pillow on top of the bigger one. yeah i think it should look quite familiar to some of you as you might have one of these pillow at home too! those that you kept it since young, never beared to throw it away not matter your mummy has nagged at you for how many years, complaining that its "smelly, dirty" or what. a lot of times it contains your drool too. haha, but i have one too! and that is how it looks like lor.

i dont have a name for the pillow, but i know one of my friend has a name for her pillow. maybe she will "communicate" with her pillow before she sleeps i guess ;)

yeah right here is a few pieces of bread. it may not look really tasty, but i like to eat it! since young my mummy would make this for me to it. how she do it is that she take a few eggs (wow high cholesterol!), beat it, add in a few teaspoon of sugar, then she would dip the bread in and fry it.

its really nice! at least to me lah, you guys can try it though. so now when mummy is not home, my auntie would prepare it for me instead =)

haha. so that's it =)

hi fellow readers.

haha, to start off, i would like to apologise to those who make an effort to read my blog. yeah because personally after i read other's blog, i felt that my blog were quite "dead" not in the sense that i dont update, but in the sense that i didnt really put in the effort to write properly, to put in the extra effort to "spice" things up. i think that's quite bad, and i hope none of you had the experience of falling asleep after reading my blog!

i promise i will TRY to put in my best effort to type, to reflect and yeah. to me i remembered why i started a blog the last time were to create a place for me to share what i feel, to share the good things, the happenings around me, incidents, experiences etc..

maybe i should tell myself to blog when necessary in a sense to not update for the sake of updating it. it would just kill off my zeal for blogging as it would be a very mundane thing to do after a while.

i believe this "concept" applies to alot of things in life, for example the purpose to maybe go school, to serve in church, to do many other things. alot of times we do not realise that we are the ones to make things turn out the way it can be, to what we want.

hmm, sometimes i would really love to include some photos. but sadly to say, i dont take photos you see. so. i tried to look at the past photos, try to upload some interesting ones lor.
yeah this were one of the photos taken while away on a Hongkong trip with my family. it was taken in the hotel room lor. those two little girls are my sisters. the taller one is joey, followed by clavis.

please dont ask me why are they not called M&Ms or Mars or Kinder Bueno or what, i also dont know why my mummy dont name them after chocolates too.

and my hair then, i remembered i like it alot. i did the hair cut in hongkong! it cost $14 sg dollars.first time i did my hair in overseas, first time paid so much. i remembered i used to like the sides without hair, sloped up, the centre part just thin it. but i guess my perception pretty much changed. due to the different environment and exposure bah =)

people change, but God dont change. its never wrong to follow after God . bye readers!

hmm. quite a good start in school this morning.

firstly i tried to psycho/encourage/motivate myself on my purpose of coming school.

a few of my classmates got "new" hairstyles, like they go cut, and yeah. slightly new look.

the usual two classmate of mine who always behave like pri school kids cont their "primary school kid" stuff.

so jojo msged me telling me that he saw this very pretty girl this morning, but she has armpit hair like guy. lol-_-

thank God for every single thing in life =)

hi!

today has been a LONG day for me.
firstly i dont know how come i overslept for promotion, i vaguely remember that i just snooze my alarm clock. and by the time i woke up by a call, it was 815. i didnt bathe, just changed then rushed out ler.

after the long morning, went home changed. went to boonlay to meet jian. took the chance to catch abit of sleep on the long train ride. yeah.

anyway reached boonlay interchange, changed to bus to city harvest church

eh the church is big! the worship session, made me felt as if i was in a mini FOP. the layout quite similar one.
anyway the sermon by pastor kong hee was good. he has his style of teaching, and yeah.

glad to see jovan prayed! haha=) i was praying very hard for him too.

anyway he's supposed to come lsbc next sat. hope he dont fly pigeon.

after that came back kovan, went for youth camp meeting.
thank God He gave me strength to last through it!

so here i am. am thankful for the day! for this one week break, it has really been relaxing, been good. i look forward to next week too. quite packed for the week. =)

i miss my cell!