Tuesday, May 11, 2010 @ 5:06 PM
dont know why left eyelid got pimples grow underneath it.. wahlau.
issit bbecause of the bad dreams these days that made my eye stress and therefore caused a pinple to grow on it? *&^%$#@!
while riding tothe polyclinic today, suddenly the incident over the death of the poly girl came to my mind. i was thinking about the thoughts and comments made over her suicide. many think that she;s stupid and dumb to jump over a failed relationship, moreover if the guy is a chui guy.. i was lead to think of the reasons why she chose to die..
i thought that possible reasons is that she might have sunk into depression, and she could not handle the overwhelming pressure that she have caused upon herself. it reminds me of times when i feel so stressed up that i would feel that literally the blood in every part of my body is boiling and fist would be clenched together, having a strong urge to punch something (not somebody)
i also thought, maybe she wanted to "teach" the guy a lesson, and maybe to her, the best way is thru her death, to make the guy fee guilty for life, for not treasuring her. well that of course seems silly to us, i myself think its really a waste to jump and end your life just like that because thats not the best way to solve things, it shouldn't even be a way out in the firsst place!!
in any case, i feel that we should not take life so lightly, just like a show which i have watched not long ago, it mentioned that everything in life happens for a reason, take every bad things as a lesson learnt, treat it as a experience gained, and move on. its easier said than done, but you grow stronger from there.
as i grow older, i have came to realise why certain things happen and i came to realise it helped me to understand certain things that happened or why it worked out to be that way beacause i have once went thru it myself and therefore, i can be more understanding
