Wednesday, May 20, 2009 @ 2:42 AM
nervous or what?
i still remember the last time when i talked to a friend of mine, if i'm not wrong, it was weijie, at a certain location, we were having a casual talk when he was talking to me about his insomnia. i told him i have never experienced it till now. these days i would lie on my bed and my mind will just run on its own. even though physically i'm tired, i just can't seems to fall asleep.
i think all these started ever since 2 weeks before my 18th birthday. when i start to get excited over something and keep thinking about it, causing the inability to fall asleep =(
these past days, or even weeks. i guess it just passed without any significance. maybe i'm just too distracted by something that just caught my mind .
i was watching discovery channel. a show named lockdown. talking about prisoners in the western countries, where they talked about how certain prisoners are being stereotyped like child abuser, and also how they feel about fellow prisoners.
this guy, a sex offender, spoke his feeling that he felt that other prisoners were unpredictable. that is, they could just somehow from somewhere, and somewhat just cause hurt on you. meaning there is this certain lack of trust between everyone, no such thing as friend friend.
this make me wonder about life, i have encounter instances where i feel people are unpredictable and so is life. towards some people, i really don't have that kind of 100% trust in them ever because of a certain occurrence.
and that sometimes make me feel that in life there is not much people to place trust in , and i mean 100% trust that kind.
well. life is like a flower. haha. weird theology.
